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disjointed   
04:33pm 25/12/2008
  last week grandmother passed away - the one in cambodia - the one i met last year for the first time ever. kinda knew it was the last time i was going to see her. but still -- death is a horrible thing. . . weirdly enough, cause i've planned my funeral in grade school when other little girls were planning their 'wedding' . . . yeah i have my wedding planned too but i just got to sucker some guy into marrying me -- death is much easier -- i can do it alone. hazzah.
so anyways, sarcasm aside -- i'm horrible at funeral - i just cry and cry. but i'm horrible at weddings too - i just cry and cry.
love is oxytocin - i figured that out. . . jerks!

but yeah, so holidays is null - but i never really celebrate anyways - i usually just work, i think this is the first time in years where i haven't worked on xmas day. . .
hazzah!
tomorrow i'm working though -

today i did a rough for the music video that i've been working on - yay.
now continuing working on the documentary that we just shot.

ahh!
then digitizing some tapes for a friend - i feel that the holidays will be eaten up. and i still won't have time to do everything i need to do with pat's music video.
oh time can be crazy. . .

but yeah, i have to figure out who i am and where i belong in this 'chinese culture'. . . where will i send my parents' spirit when the time comes -- i really have to learn more -- especially when i don't have any chinese friends either. . . ahh. . . what am i to do.
all i can think of at my grandmother's ceremony was -- wow. . . how will i know, even at my other grandmother's funeral almost 2 yrs ago -- i dont know much about my culture. . . i've been raised on television and michaelena dinners -- and then my mother asked me today -- how come you're not chinese enough. . . then she proceeded to give me the 'chinsese' speech.

how did it ever happen this way? *shrugs*
 
         9 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
   
07:16pm 08/11/2008
  *Squeeeeeeeeell!!!!!!*  
         1 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
technology is so cruel!!!   
02:37am 26/12/2007
  so i'm going to enter the ipod world this winter - - -
Now to decide - both does what i want - one is more gigs per moula - the other way too uber cool. . .
so an 80 gig ipod classic - or an 16 gig ipod touch.
80 gig is way cheaper but the itouch is . . . "whoa!"

i just need it to play video and music -- projected out on to a ... projector. . .

should i have practicallity outweigh my need to be uber cool?
 
         6 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
azn pride...   
04:19pm 18/11/2007
  I realized i gots none.

But i did dye my hair black, so i wouldn't scare my grandmother away. . . wah wah!
 
       its in your nature
 
show in december!!   
10:00pm 06/11/2007
  Front of Poster!
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Now i'm actually looking towards this show! should be fun w/ bands and weirdos... i mean. . . wonderful ppl. .. luv it!!!
 
       its in your nature
 
would you like to help?   
01:57am 10/10/2007
  I don't know who reads this anymore. . . but I'm fighting against cancer - that's teh new cause i've picked up in life.
If you would like to sponsor me. . . please click on the link below

http://www.conquercancer.ca/site/TR/Events/Toronto2008?px=1319037&pg=personal&fr_id=1201

So . .. i have to raise at least 2500 dollars. i'm about 2000 dollar short.
So . . . Pat and i have come up w/ an idea - an artist night, to help out - - - watch for more info - as of now, i'm recruiting bands, vendors etc.

So far i've got two bands, a handful of short films and in search of a venue.
The idea is there - Just have to iron it out.
I'm writing it out on here - so that i actually have to go thru w/ it. no wussing out for rany - cause cancer matters.
1 in 3 ppl eventually grow to have it.

From now on, every dollar i make from a show - i'm hiding it in my cubby hole and tossing it in the fund.

Currently looking for a venue. . .
argh. so much work. !
and then i have a real job too. .. .
 
       its in your nature
 
cancer quest   
11:04pm 27/09/2007
  Hello all,
So i don't know if you know this but i'm riding to conquer cancer - the yellow bikes - they've gotten to me.
So i'm wondering if you would like to sponsor me - - - - -
i'll eventually start spamming you all in the near future. . . some i may have gotten already. . .

but here's the link if you would like to help my fight for cancer ---
http://www.conquercancer.ca/site/TR/Events/Toronto2008?px=1319037&pg=personal&fr_id=1201

for this holiday i think i may just ask ppl to donate money for me instead of recieving 'stuff'
i still have about 2000 dollars to raise. . . massive bake sales coming up i guess

OR if you're interested in riding w/ me (since im doing this alone so far) you can register at
conquercancer.ca
=)
hope to see you there!
rany
 
         2 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
by golly cheez whiz   
08:33pm 13/09/2007
  i just found a huge container of cheez whiz in the craft bin.... mmmmm...cheez whiz!  
         2 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
hmm...   
12:30am 30/08/2007
  mr. bon jovi and richie sombora looks old.. and kinda wrinkly... but he can still sing. . . . *swoon*  
         2 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
hmmm   
06:12pm 28/07/2007
  what do ppl do for fun on a saturday? i have the night off!!! woot!  
         4 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
last minute postering   
01:22pm 28/06/2007
  Look at the posters i've found!
woot!

yay!
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         1 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
bicycle, bicycle, i want to ride my bicycle, i want to ride my bike!   
04:53am 15/06/2007
  But i can't cause someone took it. the funny thing is this:
i found a lock that was cut --- and it wasn't my lock it must've been earlier in the night. . . . i parked it at king and spadina - it was busy for goodness sake. =(
i had this horrible feeling all week that i was going to part w/ my bike. . . so i felt extra happy riding it. =(
 
         8 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
Gym   
02:21pm 09/06/2007
  Okay, i want to join a gym. i'm having a dilemmna, none of the gyms are my hours - cuase i basically want to work out when i get home from my crazy hours of work. i get home around 3am . i want a gym. . . but i can't cause it's all closed - besides STEAMWORKS for men. . . =(
that's 24.

but . . .i'm a girl ----- i would love running outside except for the fact that running outside hurts my lungs, it's too sunny so i have to wear sunglasses and i just can't excercise as long as i want.

Alot of gyms open at 7am.... on weekends. - i finish work at 5am on weekends.
Geez, i just want to lose 20 lbs. =(
 
         3 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
sleep...   
06:57pm 02/06/2007
  Today i woke up at around 7pm. i feel like i've slept forever. but then again i went to bed at 10am.... now i feel horribly tired and my hip hurts. .. . =(
I guess i did sleep 9 hours and that's amazing compared to my 5-6 hours of sleep. . .
 
         1 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
soccer   
01:04pm 26/05/2007
  does anyone know where i can purchase a soccer ball around the bloor/spadina area. . .

i'm craving soccer
too bad i work too much i want to join an intermural soccer team =(
 
         2 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
oh my goodness   
12:00am 19/05/2007
  i think i may actually be free tomorrow.... wow. . .. that would be uberly exciting! =)  
         4 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
are you ready for this?   
09:52pm 11/05/2007
  or am i? it's a test before working two jobs again. . . on monday.
tonight going into work at midnight working from then to sunday morning. kind of excited.... mommy gave me food and i'm bringing my pjs. =)
wooo
 
         1 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
pretty little kitty   
07:03pm 10/05/2007
  my pretty little kitty is laying on her crate starring out side the window. . . once in awhile starring at my pretty little sunflower. her eyes are squinted trying hard to fall asleep. how i just want to snuggle with her and squish her little soft belly . . .. mmm. . . belly  
         3 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
Reelworld - come out!   
10:42am 11/04/2007
  So i've worked on a feature all of last year, it's finally done (hopes!) it premiers today at 7pm at the paramount - at the reelworld festival at 7pm . A Winter Tale

Then my own film is playing thursday at 1.30 pm at the rainbow cinema

Then Unspoken promise is playing on saturday with A Winter Tale again at 4pm at the rainbow

And then Justin's film that i helped with also is playing on sunday at the reelworld fest. at 11am at the Rainbow.

Oh gosh! combine that with photos this saturday -- i'm going to die. . . at least idol is not so busy this week . . .

www.reelworld.ca
 
         1 became my reality -  its in your nature
 
she turns 2   
10:13am 11/04/2007
  HAPPY BIRTHDAY GYPSY CAT!!!!  
         3 became my reality -  its in your nature